6.20.15

Well, I am still alive!
The past few weeks have been quite the journey so far, and it is just the beginning! Baby Lilith Lucille (Lily Lu) was born on May 11th; the surgery went great and we have such a beautiful little girl :) Although she is definitely more challenging than my son was (he really only cried when he was hungry, whereas she cries quite a lot; I think it's because she's a girl, my husband thinks it's because she's a baby), she is still a really good babe. She has grown so much, although she is still smaller than my son was when he was born, and she'll be 6 weeks old on Monday! Two babies under two has given me a few headaches already, but it has given me way more smiles and that's good enough for me.
For the first two weeks after Lily was born I was on the low-carb diet, but I got sick of it quickly because I forgot that it makes me feel unhealthy. I love fruit and smoothies (in my Ninja I put frozen fruit, low-fat Greek yogurt, almond milk and a little Splenda or honey), and even though I love cheese I feel like I eat way too much of it when I low-carb. Even though I was on it for such a short period of time, I lost all of the baby weight plus some (25 pounds), and since I lost all of the baby weight the first time around, I weigh a little less than I did pre-babies. It makes me feel very fortune to have lost it since I always hear of women gaining a lot of weight and keeping it on, baby after baby. I then decided to keep it simple and to count calories and try some new work outs at the 8-week-post-baby mark. I was eating 1400 calories a day, and today I decided to switch to 1200 because I just want it to work faster ;) Weigh-in day is tomorrow so that will be the deciding factor. Even though I have always hated exercising, I'm looking forward to getting into shape and to be strong. I always thought that my 30's would be the best and the only way for that to happen is to make it happen; and the first 6 months have been great so it's been a good start!
I am still unsure of what to do with school. I definitely want to keep at it, because I feel like I'm just not ready to be done with school yet (maybe I actually enjoy it; isn't that a kick in the ass). I signed up for the next two terms in the grad program, although now I don't know what to do again. I felt like not continuing with it would be a waste of the last 10 months (and all of the headaches that it has caused!), but I still got something out of it. With two babies now, and a promotion at work (woohoo!) it just seems like a lot to take on. The English degree got me so excited but having a Master's degree in Psychology would be pretty amazing too... ugh. I am so torn. I was hoping that my husband would tell me what to do (and I am still waiting for him to tell me!) because it's too much for me to decide. Since I took this term off, the next one starts July 13th, so my goal is to talk to my advisor (again... she's probably sick of my indecisiveness by now), and to make the decision by the end of next week. Being an adult sucks sometimes, I wish I could take a day and spend it in my 8-year-old body as a refresher before adulting again.
I'll be back next week, hopefully with some decisions made!
~Namaste, bitches~